Thursday, September 2, 2010
Day 245 - Get Over It
I had a fairly good day but I'm struggling with that whole "moment by moment" thing. My feelings are hurt and when that happens I'm like a great white in a chum field. I bite and gnash as my eyes roll back in my head and I don't see and don't care what I eat.
This behavior is a dead end. It will not lead me where I want to go and I'm trying to turn my mood around. I have much to celebrate but my own wounded pride is robbing me. No one else is responsible for my own accomplishments. 2 years is a big damn deal and the only acknowledgment of that fact that I need is my own. I know and I'm freakin proud of myself.
Word of warning....I said I was working on it, I'm not there yet so keep out of the water.
Today I'm grateful for:
getting over it. I will, it's just a matter of time. *insert the theme to Jaws*
practicing humility. Since my humility lesson I don't pray for humility but Pride is one of my biggest issues. My current mood is directly related to my wounded pride so I need LOTS of practice. I've taken to saying my prayers face down on the carpet. No one told me too or even suggested such a thing but my thought was "If I need to practice humility then what better way then at the feet of the Lord" *shrugs* or I could just be weird. Either way, it's hard to be prideful with a nose full of dog hair.
people who are polite even when angry. I had two really pissed off owners today but they were aware that I was not who they were angry at and they were polite to me. That takes mad skill dude and it's a skill I do not possess. I'm grateful for them and I want to be like them when I grow up.
a good day. As my anger and hurt abate, the moments of my day are reshading my day. Ms. Julie saying "you have an eye". Tara & Jim saying "Yes". I love you texts from my man and the "I just used the last swiffer thing" text I got from Kelly. Oh, and my kick ass chili & cornbread. "Yeah, it was a good day. Thank you for asking"
This minute care of a Pixie and a Hamster.
My slice of Paradise