Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Yes, again. I'm slightly off. I'm tilted to the right and off balance. I have no idea why. Well, that's a lie. I do know why. Because I'm a Bi-Polar, Menopausal Superhero. My moods change faster than this woman can change her dress.
I'm disconnected, unmotivated, crabby and pissy. I think I've actually caught glimpses of Ms. Shankabitch *twitch*
Why? I mean I was just given a spectacular gift. Several in fact. What have "I" got to be pissy about?
I call Uncle. I fold. I give in. It's now time for me to face my demons and do what I've been avoiding for 2 years now. Armed with my freshly minted Medical Insurance card *insert angels singing* I am headed to the Dr.
I'm done with the "natural" way. I'm done fearing the weight gain. I'm done worrying about what the added chemicals will do to my mental heath and stability. I need to remind myself that Change and I have made up. Change is a good thing. And, in the end, if I don't like what the Drs. are pushing, I can "just say no"
I have both God and my Shrink on speed dial. It will be OK.
Monday, November 1, 2010
The Phoenix has risen from the ashes once more. Once more she has picked herself up. Something is different this time. This time there is something behind her eyes that I've never seen before. I can't tell you what it is, I have no clue. That "Something" changed my mind, made me say "Well OK then. Let's do this."
I have faith in her. This time she is going to fly higher than any of us. I can see it in her eyes.
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Last night was the "surprise" party for the man. It was a great success. Even if I let the "surprise!" out of the bag 3 hours before the party *sighs*
Family came, and family stayed until 4:30AM. We are all a bit lethargic today but we are happy, we are still 4 strong and I got extra hugs from Ms. Amy and Ms. Donna today.
Oh, and I was let in on a secret. Sorry, I can't tell you so don't ask. I will say that I'm sending out mad love to the one is is two. x0x0 Love you!
I love Sundays.