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Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Day 160 - Weak and Vulnerable

“There can be no vulnerability without risk; there can be no community without vulnerability; there can be no peace, and ultimately no life, without community.”
~M. Scott Peck~

My Community

I'm keeping it short today. *gasp* I know right? Well, I just sent off a VERY long winded email to 5 of my "community" and in it I poured my heart and soul. I'm left feeling weak and vulnerable. What do you do when you feel vulnerable? You pull in and revert to what's safe and familiar. For me, that's my list. So let's get on with it shall we?

Today I'm grateful for:

my community of believers. I had NO idea how much I needed them till just now. I'm not alone.

the ladies in my small group. They fed me and lead me and now I have a plan.

learning what to do next. Even though it freaked me out and took me 3 hours of staring at the blinking "send" button to do it.

living a God orchestrated life. The next 66 months should be a grand adventure of a lifetime.

my husband Dave. He puts up with my insanity with grace and humor. One day I hope he gets just how much I love him. I take comfort in knowing he wishes the same about me.

the comfort my list brings me. My nerve and bravado were spent. I can feel it returning in the typing of my list. It's been a long time since I was THAT vulnerable.

email. Cuz once you hit send, there's no takebacks. Um, if there is DON'T tell me about it.

beginning. I was lead, I prayed, I took the first step. Now I'm on a journey within a journey within a journey. That's a whole lott'a adventure my friend. Once I sweat off the fear it should be fun.

a hot bath on a weekday morning. Is there anything more decadent than that?

80's glam rock. What else would you listen to when you're feeling all exposed and vulnerable? Geez, don't you know nuffin?

I know, putting a Kiss video in a post like this is a bit odd
But I never said I was conventional

1 comment:

  1. You had a hot bath this morning? Jealous!! You're in my prayers lady :D