"I will not die an unlived life. I will not live in fear of falling or catching fire. I choose to inhabit my days, to allow my living to open me, to make me less afraid, more accessible, to loosen my heart until it becomes a wing, a torch, a promise. I choose to risk my significance; to live so that which comes to me as seed goes to the next as blossom and that which comes to me as blossom, goes on as fruit." ~Dawna Markova~
Today I'm grateful for:
women of courage. They show me how beautiful it can be and give me an example to strive for.
my courage. I am doing things today that I never thought were possible. I was afraid. With each new challenge I knew if I failed, my recovery could collapse. I tried anyway. I will not diminish my own courage in the face of others more courageous. I will own my share while being humbled by theirs.
God inspired emails. I am afraid but I await the reply. It's not life or death and it's in God's hands now.
a cashed check. Little Red Tree cashed my check. I guess that means my book is in the review process. I have not yet received a rejection. Do I have enough courage to hope?
Georgia's letter to herself. It was one of the most beautiful things I've ever read and she says "I" inspired her. I am humbled and honored. Oh, and the way she hocks my book I'm so going to make her my publicist when Oprah calls!
no piles on Wilson. I thought the man's head was going to explode with yesterday's pile. *sighs* Way to go Roy.
Monday. I enjoyed my weekend adventure to the max, but now I'm glad to be back in my routine.
working out. I had not worked out since Friday Morning. I actually missed it. OH Snap, I'm a freak! Wait....I already know that...Never mind.
my husband. I know he doesn’t want me to but he's letting me anyway. I sure hope I give him as much as he gives me but I doubt I ever will. I hope he's content with me trying very hard.
jobs. So many friends and family are currently unemployed that to forget to be grateful would be an insult to those suffering. I am doubly blessed. I have a job I LOVE. I promise, I won't ever take it for granted.
God's grace. There is no other way to explain it. How the magnificent life I have now could possibly be the very same life I hated so much a short time ago.
my life. My messy slice of paradise. Inhabited by garden pixies, alien hamsters and custom made princes. Punctuated by red mustangs and big pink bikes. Colored by yellow sharpies. Orchestrated by God. I do not deserve a life such as this but I will never fail to be grateful for it.
home. Road trips are fun but the best part is always coming home.